Today was going to be a rant about knitting, snobs and acrylic yarn. It’ll have to wait. Oh it’s still going to be a rant, but not a knitting-related one. It’s also why this post is so late today.
I got an e-mail yesterday from a friend, a former co-worker who has been diagnosed with renal cell carcinoma which is resistant to chemotherapy and radiation. She is young (41) and very fit. She has a husband and children. And she has cancer.
I spent a large part of yesterday raging incoherently. It just seems like such a cheat. If you’ve ever seen “Independence Day”, I felt just like Judd Hirsch telling Jeff Goldblum (his son in the film) “I haven’t spoken with God since your mother died.” That sums it up exactly. I was furious.
So I went up to visit her this morning. I have always marveled at her slenderness because when we hug, my arms go all the way around her. Today, instead of endearing, it seemed ominous. I know, I know - all in my head.
She’s is good spirits, always having been an extremely hard-headed, practical type and, otherwise in good health except for the occasional ache. She feels that the prognosis is good. She’s got cat scans and bone scans and MRIs scheduled and she has informed herself (very well, I might add) about what this type of cancer entails, how it is treated, and what she can expect going forward. She is very tough and more than capable of handling things - but part of me keeps thinking she shouldn’t have to.
She is still telling herself that the doctors may get in there, when the biopsy is done, and find that it’s something else entirely - something benign. And who knows - maybe that’s just what will happen. God knows I’m keeping my fingers crossed and telling my darker thoughts to just shut the h-e-double-hockey-sticks up!
We’ll be meeting for lunch a week from Friday and there may be more information by then.
If you have a second to spare, would you cross your fingers?
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Keeping the fingers and the toes both crossed! =)
Everything is crossed and I’m praying madly for her, too.
Oh my dear friend - I’ll keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. (((((HUGS))))) Theresa
good thoughts and prayers will be going out from texas for everyone involved-
i know your friendship and support will mean a lot to her during this time-
I know how you are feeling. My best friend in the world was diagnosed with Stage 4B Hodgkin’s Lymphoma just about a year ago. I was so angry that this could happen to someone so special. Today she is in complete remission. Miracles DO happen. Hoping for one for your friend.
I’ll pray for her (and you too)
please consider yourself hugged and looked after
I’ll be praying for you both..
